Unsure

I feel so unsure at this moment. So lost. So scared. I've taken on a temp job as a bid coordinator. It's both been a blessing and a curse. The blessing part is that it's brought me back face to face with the subject that I enjoy. The subject I choose. I feel empowered by it. There's so much to this job I like. I like the guy I'm working with/for. I like the fact that I'm helping him out. I think I like the other two ladies, although they are pretty anxious. I like the simplicity of my work and the fact that, for the most part, I can figure it out. I really enjoy the drive. Its seems to be the right balance of distance, time, and traffic. The curse is that I feel like I should be making more money, for the degrees I hold (greedy), that the environment is turning me to my old ways, making me hostile (feeling unsure of my ability to hold myself), the other people that are there that speaking about their personal lives and things of silliness while the people who work for them are terribly anxious. Its so sad. It's so sad to see the women who sit around me anxious while the men seem happy go lucky. But I guess they are not. I guess they let our their frustration through yelling. It's so difficult being there right now. I feel so stuck.