Putting Your Best Foot Forward

I've always been afraid to put my best foot forward. I've been afraid that others will judge me, think I'm gloating, or I'll put out the wrong energy and overwhelm people.

Bottom line, I'm an emotional person. I have highs and I have downs. When I'm nervous I'm very high.  Loud, cheery, rambling. It's who I am. I think in most of the interviews I'd had, it's boded me well. Well except for the technical ones. But maybe that's a sign. A good one, of who I am. It's natural. I'm not perfect. It's who I am. I hope people can see through it and understand it's because I'm nervous.  When things get hopeless or go wrong, I'm sad. I hurt, I get angry, I get mad. Again-it's who I am. The good thing is that I've learned to let go. To accept that the big things in life are sometimes out of my control. Who likes me, who doesn't. Who or what dies or lives. Who will be there for me, who will not. Who I will connect with, who I will not. These are part of a bigger picture and bigger plan. I am not the only one in control. Life, energy, freedom, purpose, God, they too are all part of the equation. And. Letting them be is part of achieving true peace.

So, if putting my best foot forward means I come off as the person I come off at that exact moment. Then that is good. That is meant to be. That is done for me. To embrace it, notice it, learn from it, confirm it. That is what I do. That is where my heart of happiness instills.